Well My advice is go to a Gun Shop in your area Handle all you can And if you have a place that rent guns at a range go there and try em out then make your judgement then, Before you buy it and put hard money on something that you havent used is crazy. you have to be really comfortable with it if you plan to use it in self defense mode. a gun that you are comfortable with is a gun that you will be consistant with. also what type of caliber are you planning on getting 380. 9mm, 357sig, .40, 10mm, .45 those are all good choices but what you are best hitting center mass is the one you need to choose. good luck in shopping and happy Shooting. and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.